Good Monday dolls!! I hope your weekend was bliss!! Here, it was lovely despite a little bit of rain. I got a lot done and am ready for the new week to begin. I was sat thinking the other day about life and how far I've come and what I still have in my mind that I'd like to achieve. For those that don't know, I'm originally from America. A small town in the state of Michigan. Growing up was hard at times, we didn't have much money, a lot of the times we went without food. Kids made fun of me at school because I didn't have the latest fashions but what they didn't know, is I lived in a house full of sadness. I dreaded going home. There was always yelling and fights. Nothing I did was ever good enough. There was a lot of physical and mental abuse. It's a hard thing to comprehend when your young, you think your mother should be the nicest person of all, but she was mean. I tried and tried to please her and be a good daughter, but nothing ever seemed to make her proud. I actually don't recall hearing her say she was proud of me at any time really, even now. I grew up with no self-esteem, always trying to please people, afraid of making mistakes and not loving myself so well. Which only lead to more problems - self harm & eating problems. I felt alone growing up a lot of the time. Now that I have daughters of my own, I couldn't imagine ever giving them any moments of sadness or fear like that. I never want them to doubt that I love them. People tried to tell me all the time that because of who my mother and family were, that I'd become nothing. That I wasn't worth anything. But, I'd like to tell them & anyone else who has or is going through the same - that you are someone!! You are anyone you want to be & never let anyone decide for you. It's not where you come from, it's where you're going. Some may be wondering why am I spilling all of this!?! Well, I think if I can help someone who might be going through the same thing walk out or do something about, then all of that sadness will be well worth it. There are millions of children & teens all over the world that are alone, scared and living with abuse who have no one to talk to. And it has to stop. There is no excuse for it. I don't need my mother to be proud of me now, I am proud of myself. And my girls never need to do anything to make me proud, I am already for them just being born. I thankfully have had my husband to deal with the issues of my childhood - he's my rock. He's helped me to love myself as I am & see the beauty I possess. But, I know many have no one. I very much give time and effort into certain charities for kids: UNICEF - NSPCC - Children 1st - Barnardo's! There is a light at the end of the tunnel. My world is happy now, I have my girls & my husband and they bring the joy I need. I've made it out of the small town, I've seen some of the world & will see more. And there is no one to stop me :)
Sorry if this is long or whatever, but I feel it's important & it's the reason I started my 'Lundi Love' (Monday Love) days. Because we all need love in this world & if we don't stand for something, we will fall for anything. And I want anyone reading this to find that courage within themselves and run with it...be who you are and love who you are! Because no one could be a better you than - you!!
Have a super Monday dolls!!
“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss and have found their way out of the depths. these persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness and a deep loving concern. beautiful people don’t just happen.” – Elisabeth Kubler-Ross ♥
“Every adversity carries with it the seed of an equivalent or greater benefit.” ~ Napoleon Hill